As I sit here, contemplating the route I want to take with the description of who I am, all of the “typical” things are coming up; write out my name, a list of hobbies I like, my dog’s name, my relationship status, if I prefer cooking or baking, maybe add an exclamation point to make me sound like a cheery and upbeat individual.

But that thought disappeared just as quickly as it came.

To chalk up the energy, essence, and uniqueness of who I am to the fact that I like to run (lol), felt like a cop out. It felt like the easy way out.

How could I possibly ask you, my multi-faceted and multi-dimensional client, to show me your heart in a collaborative space if I refuse to show you mine?

Although this route of sharing who I am in a way that actually speaks to you, maybe even relates to you, requires so much more effort and depth, it’s also exactly the reason why I do what I do. It’s the reason I’ve chosen (or rather it chose me) this style of documentation. The kind of style that highlights the chaos, reality, and beauty of what life really is.

This work is not just a job for me, it’s a mirror and a reflection of who I am, who I’m not, and who I’m ready to become. It’s a constant invitation to meet with the parts of me that are looking for refuge. It’s the daily commitment that fights with the teenage version of me that wants to resist structure and order. It’s the countless amount of hours editing unpaid work just to get my name out there. It’s the fear, and also, the trust of knowing that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

So, yes, I could technically give you a rundown of everything I like to do, what my day-to-day looks like, and the name of my hometown where I grew up, or…. 

I could tell you that I struggle with PMDD/ADHD and it heavily affects every aspect of my life.

I could tell you that conscious relationship work has been one of the most gratifying yet challenging things I have ever chosen.

I could tell you that my health has been struggling for over a year now with no real, root-based answers in sight.

I could also tell you that I’m in therapy, and holy shit, how monumental and healing it’s been for the part of me that has always associated success and progress with loneliness.

Although these are just a few pieces of my journey thus far, they are also pieces that I hope you can find yourself in somewhere along the way. If there’s one thing I’ve learned amidst the chaos of life, it’s that the most transformative moments are the moments where I allow my heart to be seen and held by others. The moment where I drop the shield, the mask, the fear, and find safety within what’s real.

So, welcome to Indigo Blue Photography.

Where we meet in a space of vulnerability, but where we also laugh our asses off because I’m just really funny.

I can’t wait to celebrate you, your people, and everything in-between.

Thanks for being here,

Monica <3